Seems apt as I look into the clouds immersed in the song in Raaga Bilahari at 630am.. A cool morning breeze blowing gently.. bread in hand. Just happy. Thankful for all I have. And so much to look forward to.. Not worrying about the list of tasks to complete in the 1 odd hour left before I leave for work.. (and hopefully reach on time! )

Life is beautiful! :)

Dorakuna Itu Vanti Seva? -“Will it ever be possible to have the blessed privilege of such a Darshana?”

7 learnings..

1.  Working hard does mean you starve. Yes, you are eating food as normal but for some reason, you stomach is screaming out that it is starving. SO EAT!!!

2. Caffeine can keep me awake yes, but I get a feeling I am abusing it. I feel unclean. And I dont even like coffee. Well it tastes ok with Milo, by why should I consume 2 - 2.5 spoons of coffee a day? I must stop.. Coffee cannot substitute sleep.  If I am drinking coffee, it means I am not managing my time well enough to get good sleep. It is important to recognize this and work towards instead of thinking everything is hunky dory because I got 13.5 points.

I am slowly starting to realizing their beauty.

I am also understand what “Monday morning blues” are. Except its Sunday night.

But my week begins early - on sunday night.

I need the unwinding on saturday and sunday. It’s worth it. It recharges my battery. Makes Monday-Friday worth working.

And I love this go all out on weekdays and relax on weekends concept. Both complement each other - and make the other all the more satisfying! Although you wish the weekends were just that little bit longer, I guess I ll get used to it.

Its a Saturday. Office is closed. And its vacation time. There is no cluster leader during vacations.
And there is a power shutdown (not that it matters in this context, but still, no food, no nanyang supermarket, no LIFT, and no desktop. and no fan. and no light in the bathroom. and no lot of other things we are so shamelessly dependent on.)

And you want that account statement you think is in your mailbox. But you obviously dont have your mailbox key because you didnt think it was a smart idea to take half-day in office just to get the mailbox key from the extremely helpful people at admin office who are available strictly from 9-5 on weekdays only.

Had review session at work. People are very happy. Which is boring - but suits me now. I need to simplify non-CM parts of life.

Microsoft seems to have agreed to pay. Need to focus on CM. Really focus. Obsess over it. There are just 2 weeks left.

Dear body,

Sorry for abusing you like this. I promise to make it up to you.

Please understand and cooperate like you always have.

Thanks!
Nishanth

This is turning out to be a intense week! Last couple of weeks were also tight but I managed to mostly stay afloat.

Now, I am slowly beginning to get pulled under from different sides and it is forcing me to rapidly prioritize, plan and execute to keep things moving. Which is tiring but very exciting. So far it has been great fun but it is ever so easy for things to become spin out of control. And this time, I was so determined to stop that from happening that I was able to turn the crisis switch on earlier than usual. Crisis mode is always fun - but I hope there isnt much damage done this time around. Cannot compromise.

I am a strong believer in perspectives. Perspective changes everything.

Yet, some perspectives are ridiculously hard to achieve. Like the one where you look at yourself as an outsider. Maybe I can step back - but can I look at myself as another person would? No, I cannot. I am restricted by me. The assumptions  I make about myself. The curse of knowledge. Knowledge about myself.

I have always maintained that the person who knows you best is yourself. I still hold on to that. But then, I realize it is a biased perspective. To see that knowledge in its raw form objectively is very difficult. It is too complex. So we have checkpoints. Abstractions. Assumptions. Axioms. Call it what you want, but it is biased.

Especially when you angry. Anger tends to make your view myopic.

and half way through convincing myself to dump my work and go to sleep.

And my lovely sister had this on her status:

When life gets you down you know whatchu gotta do? Just keep Swimmin’! Just keep swimmin’!Just keep swimmin’ swimmin’ swimmin’ What do we do? we swim swim.

I asked her why so much excitement and she sent me this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cxB_TemN1pc

Gave me that little extra firepower to last the night!